…that is to say, I’ve stopped blogging for a while. 3 weeks, I think, to be exact. I don’t really have a good excuse. I’ve written before that I have a new job, and while that is true, and while it IS busy, I’ve also found myself preferring to play Sims Freeplay on my iPad than blog. I’m not sure why I like to waste time (and money) so much – perhaps it comes from the part of me that was never really allowed to have free time as a kid. Maybe I should take a look at that soon…
But what I think really caused me to go AWOL for a while is that my period went all wonky, and I found myself really afraid that I had gone into early menopause. If I were going into early menopause, then it meant that I would probably not be able to have a second baby. And everyone knows how much I really, really, REALLY want a second baby. What happened was…I had been bleeding almost continuously since June 27, 2012. My period started that day, and then it never really quite went away. To be precise, it would go away, but then come back a few days later. Then it would go away again, only to come back again after a week or so. It got to be where figuring out when and if I was ovulating was a total nightmare. I mean, the box says you’re supposed to test about 7 days after the end of your period, unless you have longer periods, in which case, you can start testing about 11 days after it ends. But if you don’t know when it ends…when are you supposed to test?
I was driving myself crazy for a while. I even drove myself to my gynecologist to get myself checked out. She theorized that perhaps it was stress-related, and suggested that I see an acupuncturist (I LOVE my gynecologist for this reason). Then again, she also billed me $1,184 for my visit, and I am not sure what the heck warranted that – all we did was talk. She didn’t even examine me! But that’s a digression – I am sure it was a mistake. I also called up my naturopathic doctor, Dr. Connie Hernandez, who helped me get pregnant the first time around.
She suggested I go get my blood testing done, something I’ve been meaning and meaning and meaning to do, except that I haven’t. I’ve been working, and taking care of my little girl, and…and playing Sims Freeplay. To make a long story short, my menstrual cycle has seemingly gone back to normal as of the end of August…it appears that it was just a one-month anomaly. My cycle was even a normal length – 28 days, which it NEVER is. I am postulating that it is because I started being more regular about taking Maca root powder, which is indescribably disgusting, but it definitely is well known for balancing female hormones. Plus, there is also the nice little side effect of giving me a rush of energy.
So, to make a long story short, the journey to fertility – round 2 – is still ongoing…and going…and going. What I think I need to do is do what I did the first time – tone and strengthen my body to be in the best physical shape to sustain life again, and also open myself up spiritually as a vessel to receive another soul who wants to cross over into the physical realm. And I also need to stay positive! If you’re also on a journey to fertility, I’d love to hear from you on how you’re dealing with it/staying positive.
